and the clock strikes

its nearly one in the morning. i need to be up shortly. i am drunk out of mind and yet i have so few thoughts. i am pretty sure im going to be sick. im pretty sure i am jealous that my friend likes some girl. yet im equally sure that im now happy i am single. but im not sure if that means i am better or not. how do i know if im better? and when did i switch to just carrying why people think the way they do instead of trying to change their thoughts? and when did i lose track of both for myself? i havent any idea why i think what i do and i couldnt really care less.